Manjula's Drama

Okay last night I dreamed about goats. Don't ask me why. Basically the dream had two parts. One part I was talking with a bunch of friends about various topics at 3:00am. The precisely at 5:30am everyone started leaving in a hurry and going out the door. It was starting to rain and two people jumped in a jeep that had the top open other people got in different cars and drove off. Then somehow I end up in a barn and there are goats (a mom and several babies). For some reason I am trying to get the goats out of the barn to help them so I am rushing them to another location and the person who was with me (I can't remember who it was) was helping me. There were some other barnyard animals present but I was only concerned about the goats.

Something is seriously wrong with me. I keep having these weird dreams and am not getting enough rest. It sucks! Again, I am open to any interpretations.

I am so glad it is Friday. It has been a rough week!

In this life I'm a woman. In my next life, I'd like to come back as a bear. When you're a bear, you get to hibernate. You do nothing but sleep for six months. I could deal with that.

Before you hibernate, you're supposed to eat yourself stupid. I could deal with that too.

When you're a girl bear, you birth your children (who are the size of walnuts) while you're sleeping and wake to partially grown, cute, cuddly cubs. I could definitely deal with that.

If you're mama bear, everyone knows you mean business. you swat anyone who bothers your cubs. If your cubs get out of line, you swat them too. I could deal with that.

If you're a bear, your mate EXPECTS you to wake up growling. He EXPECTS that you will have hairy legs and excess body fat.

Yup, gonna be a bear! :)

Earlier this week, I had a conversation with an old co-worker who told me that there was going to be an opening as a Job Counselor. I told her my concern was the money and she said that she would talk to our old supervisor to see what the range is. I told her that I would talk to Abdur about it and make a decision. I called Abdur and basically got the response "is that really something you need to think about?". I was not really asking him, I was more needing to process the whole thing. It will end up being a little less than I am making now but I would have a million times less stress. I will mostly be helping people get some kind of trade to get a job and monitoring their progress plus helping some people get jobs at various employers in the community. I will not have the flexibility that I have now (ie going into work at 9:00 or 9:30 am) I will have to be at work at 8:00am. I am not sure if I am ready for that. Abdur says that I will be able to get up if I know that I do not have to work till 10pm or 11pm. Maybe that is true. Maybe I will be able to get up if I don't hate my job. I will not be traveling as much, people will be coming to me. I will be working with my old co-workers who I enjoyed working with. I will be under my old supervisor who is really strict and was always on my back (even though I have heard that she has calmed down a whole lot). I guess more of my dilemma is I really hate my job right now. I have WAY too many cases and I am sooo behind. I do enjoy working with the kids and the families. That is something that I will not have. I will get to see the occasional children of the parents that do not have anyone to take care of their children but I will be working with the parents. I know I can volunteer like I was earlier to work with children and if I am getting off work at 5:30pm at the latest I will have more time. I need to just get used to it. I worked till 9pm today and while I was working, I thought about some of the things that I would miss. I know I have made a difference with my families so I can take that away with me. My new job won't really be a social work job. I mean people have that job that do not even have a social work degree much less a Masters. I know I don't have to stay in this job forever so if it doesn't match well with me, I can always look for another one later on, at least I will have much less stress. Still thinking....

On another note, while I was at work my uncle called me (the retarded one). When I was younger he used to call me pounds. Okay some history, he used to think that me and my sister were lazy so he would call us lazy bones. Then he shortened it and started saying lb. well if you look at what that is an abbreviation for, he used to call us pounds. So being someone who does not want to grow up, he called me on the phone and said "hey pounds". It threw me off because it is like a nickname that you get when you are in elementary school that you think people have matured enough to stop saying things like that and then you realize that people don't grow up. So anyway he proceeds to tell me that they were just talking about having a contest about whose belly was the biggest; mine, his, my dad's or my sister's. I could not believe that he was calling me at work to talk about this. I mean I have WAY better things to be doing than talking to him anyway and then to be talking about stupid things. The thing about my uncle too is that he can dish it out but cannot handle it if I say anything to make fun of him. So this weekend is going to be interesting. I told Abdur to watch out because he is going to see my uncle crying. I am really not that mean, it is just him and his issues.

As Abdur mentioned in his entry, we are going to be overloaded with family time this weekend. Fun stuff!

Aside from a sucky Friday at work, the night ended well. Friday night we had people come for dinner; Becky, Michael, Stacey, Chris, Avery, April, Chris, Daniel and the roommates minus Jeremy and Tanith were here. We cooked out, talked and had some fun. I had a great time with Avery, she is growing up SO much! I haven't seen Stacey in a while so it was nice to catch up with her. She looked really good! Chris, Stacey and Avery were able to stay pretty late so that was nice. Shortly after they left, April, Chris and Daniel headed out. Becky and Michael stayed a little longer and we played some spades. We had a good time. Abdur and fell asleep on the couch and that is where I stayed till 8:00 am this morning. The couch is really comfortable but sleeping in my contacts and jeans was not so comfortable. Needless to say, I am tired. Tonight I will make sure I actually sleep in my bed.

Today has been a nice day. At 8 am I finally went to bed where I stayed till about 11:30am. Then I got up, exercised and went to watch Wedding Crashers with Abdur. It was soooo funny! Next, I want to see The 40 year virgin with the group. After the movie, we came and got my cousin ansd went to eat dinner at O'Charley's. It was good. There were so many cute kids there tonight. Anyway now I am working on some work stuff and watching last night's Monk. It is really sad, the whole day I have been thinking today was Sunday. The fact that it is not, makes me so incredibly happy!

Note: My friend Patrice saw Charles Barkley today at the gym.

Another note: My aunt in New Orleans is probably going to come to Asheville for a couple of days because they are asking people to evacuate. So my sister called to tell me. My first response was "So do you want to evacuate to Raleigh?" My aunt is not our favorite person these days. Hopefully everything will be alright with their house and my aunt's daycare.

Today was an alright day. The Program Manager told me that I did a good job on a case when I had to present the case to him. I will take praise when I get it since I do not get it from my direct supervisor EVER! My co-worker (friend) had her evaluation today with her supervisor and she said it went well. I am not expecting that mine will go that well. Not because I do a bad job, my supervisor is not the appreciative type and does not recognize that we are busting out butts. She will probably focus on the fact that I am behind on my paperwork and some of my cases have taken longer than I should have had them because I work with my families too much. She has actually told me that I spend too much time with my families. I personally think that is retarded but I just ignore her and make sure I do a good job for myself. I am really glad that tomorrow is Friday. I need the weekend. We are supposed be booked this weekend but I think we are going to bail on one engagement. We will see.

Tomorrow (well actually tonight) Becky and Michael are coming into town so they want to go to dinner. I am excited that I get to see Avery, since Stacey and Chris will be going too.

Update on the family front. Nothing really has changed. My mom is acting weird. I know she is stressed out but she is just flying off the handle yelling at me and my sister about all kinds of things. It is annoying. It is not like we are not stressed too.

Well I have to get back to work now. I have a file due tomorrow.

Today I had a half a day of pseudo relaxation. I slept a little late, went to lunch and had a pedicure before I went to work. It was really nice but I was still stresse the whole day. I think my body is so used to being stressed, it stays that way even when I am trying to relax. This has been a very rough week for me. I am starting to resent my job now. I don't know if it is because I have other things in my life that is stressing me as well or if my job is just getting worse. I have two weeks left of my sentence. I should be looking for another job so I can leave but the truth is I have so much work to do before I leave my job. I am so behind. This weekend I am going to look in the paper for my options. Wish me luck...

In other news, Abdur has a job interview on Monday. YAY! So on Monday, send positive thoughts his way!

BTW Daniel. Bilal was hiding in the woods. Abdur went to his apartment to collect some money that he owes us and drop of some mail that was sent to our apartment. Abdur knocked on the door three times, no answer. Abdur then decided to go down a couple of steps to see if he opened the door when he thought the person had left. As Abdur was waiting on the stairs, he spotted Bilal in the woods, acting like he was looking for something. Yeah, right. He was hiding from Abdur. When Abdur spotted him, he walked towards Bilal. As he approached closer, Bilal saw him and acted like he did not see him earlier and didn't know Abdur was there. Abdur asked Bilal for the money and he said he did not have it until Wednesday. Note: Bilal had a fresh hair cut, new shorts, shoes and hat. Abdur told him he would come back for the money, gave him the mail and left. Yes, he was hiding in the woods!

My family is acting retarded too. I always have drama in my family so I guess it is not news. I think my patience is just running thin these days and I don't want to deal with it anymore. Drawback to have so many family members.

Update on my dad's situation. This weekend, while Abdur and I were in Asheville my dad was doing well. Walking, talking and eating well. Apparently after we left, he changed. My mom called me on Sunday and said that after we left, he got restless and lost his strength. Since Sunday he has not been able to sometimes hold a fork. It is so weird to me to think of him that way when every time I see him, he is talking, walking around and eating. I cannot process how he is doing since I haven't seen him like that. Tomorrow the Hospice doctor is coming to the house to meet with my dad. Not sure what he wants to talk about but we will find out tomorrow morning.

BREAKING NEWS: My sister just called and said that Asheville just had an earthquake.

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To all you gamers,
I am sorry for being so rude at the conclusion of your gaming session yesterday (even though you are used to me being mad when you go over). On top of the usual annoyance of gaming lasting longer than it is supposed to, I had some other things on my mind. I apologize for being rude. Hope you guys forgive me. Have a great day!

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Well 22 more days till my sentence is up! I can't believe September is almost here! The only problem is I am so far behind in work that I need more than 22 days to catch up and that is if I don't get any more reports. What am I going to do? Especially when I am too stressed and overwhelmed to catch up. These days I am feeling not myself. I don't feel organized at all and that makes me uneasy. I went shopping with April a couple of weeks ago where I picked up an organizational book. Although Jeremy feels that I do not need the book, it has helped me a little to start to feel a little better. I know that sounds weird. However, at times I just feel like I am spinning my wheels without getting anywhere.

Part of not being organized is our bills. I haven't ever had a problem keeping up with bills. Some of it is not having money but also the fact that I forget to send the bills on time. That is not me. I can't believe that I am so unorganized these days. Here's hoping to getting better.

In other news, we are heading to Asheville again this weekend. Don't worry we will be back in time for Abdur to run his adventure!

Current Mood: stressed
Current Music: Law & Order CI

Brown people peel too! My shoulders and my face are peeling from the sunburn. Just thought I would let you guys know. It is not like lobster boy or schultz's head but I am peeling!

You Are A:


Lawful Good Halfling Bard Cleric
Follower Of Avoreen

Alignment:
Lawful Good characters are the epitome of all that is just and good. They believe in order and governments that work for the benefit of all, and generally do not mind doing direct work to further their beliefs.

Race:
Halflings are short and fat, like minuature people. (Think 'Hobbits') They enjoy the easy life, but aren't averse to the idea of an adventure from time to time. They get along with all races, and are known for their senses of humor. Halflings also tend to be light of foot, and can move quietly when necessary.

Primary Class:
Bards are the entertainers. They sing, dance, and play instruments to make other people happy, and, frequently, make money. They also tend to dabble in magic a bit.

Secondary Class:
Clerics are the voices of their God/desses on Earth. They perform the work of their deity, but this doesn't mean that they preach to a congregation all their lives. If their deity needs something done, they will do it, and can call upon that deity's power to accomplish their goals.

Deity:
Avoreen is the Lawful Good halfling god of war, defense, and vigilance. He is also known as the Defender and the Vigilant Guardian. Followers of Avoreen are devoted to the defense of the halfling race, and spend their days drilling and preparing other halflings for the defense of their homes, if necessary. Their preferred weapon is the short sword. Avoreen's symbol is a pair of crossed short swords.


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Well I haven't updated in a while so here goes....

This past weekend we went to Asheville. My mom had a few people over from Atlanta and Greenville on Saturday, so it was nice. I got to see some people I haven't seen in a while. I got to spend some time with the family so that was good. It is especially sad to leave my parents these days. Abdur, my sister, Heather, Tyrone, Christina and her husband, all went to see The Longest Yard on Saturday night. It was soo good. For those of you who have any question...we went to a 10:30pm movie and I did not fall asleep! Yes that is right ladies and gentleman, it passed the Niroshi-sleep test.

Sunday - on our way back from Asheville we stopped to see my niece, Carley <- not crazy about the name but what can I say. She is so cute, she is very tiny (6lbs 4oz). It is weird for me to hold a baby that small when I am used to holding 8lb-10lb babies. :) We spent a little while there, played with Celeste and headed home. We stopped by Steak and Shake (very delicious) for dinner on the way home. After our meal, with milkshakes in hand, we headed home.

Abdur and I celebrated our 2 year anniversary on Tuesday. Thanks to all who wished us a happy one! For the record (Jeremy) I said I did not view anniversaries the same as birthdays. I grew up thinking it was something that was only celebrated between the couple, I never knew people wished other people or gave gifts or even remembered. It was nice to know so many people remembered though.

Back to work today, which of course was stressful. I just have way too much work to do and not enough time in the day. The bad thing is that I am not able to stay late any day this week, due to prior commitments, to work on anything. I had scheduled appointments all day today and did not have any time to return phone calls, do paperwork, etc. Oh well, someday I will catch up, sadly it will be when I leave this position ;)

Tonight I went to play a game called Bunco with Brenda, Melody and some other people. It was a lot of fun. For my first time, I did pretty well :) A game the Gang should think about playing.. for those gamers- it involves dice!

For the weekend, we have mystery plans on Saturday evening. I tried to trick my cousin today to find out details but it didn't work. My question is who is involved with these mystery plans. I know Jeremy, my cousin and Daniel is involved, but how many of you out there are plotting too. I hope you guys are not planning on taking me to some Dungeons and Dragons convention or something. We will see on Saturday :)

Current Mood: loved

I had a wonderful weekend which makes being back to work that much harder. Saturday Abdur and I packed a little and then took a trip to Fayettville to see a movie, Bride and Prejudice and also his brother, Waleed. We got down there, visited their apt. for a little bit, ate dinner at a Chinese Buffet that as far as I am concerned beats Ten Ten. It was really good. We dropped Waleed and Siobhan back at the apt. and headed to our movie. It was an alright movie, both Abdur and I have seen MUCH better movies but it wasn't terrible. The theatre was nice. Downtown Fayettville is actually really nice too. We started to head home about 9:30pm. On the way home, Abdur surprised me and pulled into Krispy Kreme where the HOT DOUGHNUTS sign shined so brightly. It doesn't take much to impress me. ;) We got our dozen doughnuts and coffee and headed home. We shoved doughnuts in our faces the whole way home and engaged in some interesting conversations.
On Sunday we packed a little more. I also received an invitation to get a pedicure with Leigh Ann and Stacey. I decided to partake in some relaxation exercises. The place where we went was a new place. It was really nice inside. I wasn't all that impressed with the actual pedicure but I am biased because I really like the place I go to in Cary Towne Center. While I was there I decided to go ahead and get my eyebrows done since they were in need and it was the same price as my usual place. I was really disappointed with the waxing job that I received though because she burned my eyelid. It looks like she must have dripped it on my eyelid because it is burnt lower than my eyebrows are. I know they were bad but not THAT bad! So I received an injury while trying to look decent. The whole experience was alright because it was funny to see Leigh Ann's reaction to certain things since it was her first time. I also found out that I have been neglecting my feet. The man doing the pedicure asked me if he could scrap my feet, thinking he was going to pull out that coarse sponge and rub it on the bottoms, I agreed. Well little did I know he was going to pull out a tool (it looked like an apple peeler) and scraped the bottom of my feet. It didn't hurt at all but it was disgusting the skin just fell off! I couldn't believe that I had that much dead skin. Anyway, when he did it, I looked over at Leigh Ann's feet and the man proceeded to tell me that she did not have dead skin like I did. Was that really necessary? Just kidding, it didn't really bother me, but I thought it was funny. So after our pedicures Stacey and I grabbed a quick bite to eat and then she dropped me back home. Abdur and I headed out to Morrisville to drop off some things and sign our lease. We scooped up Jeremy and headed to the office. We stood around in the sun waiting for the woman to come back to the office. Finally, she came back and we read and signed the lease. We then headed to our place to pick up the food and then went to the park for the first cookout of the season. It was a lot of fun to relax, chat, make fun of each other and of course EAT! Some played badminton, others played tennis. Abdur showed some skills on the court. Me, my cousin, Rob and Daniel played well too but definitely identified some areas that needed improvment :) I am sure that my cousin and Daniel will want a rematch soon enough. All in all the weekend was really nice. The coming weekends are going to be pretty hectic so it was nice to get a relaxing one in there. Well better get back to work.

Abdur and I have been thinking about maybe having our first cookout of the Spring on Sunday in the afternoon/evening. Was wondering if anyone wanted to join us? We are planning on doing it at Carolina Pines Park (right beside our apartment. There are tennis courts, volleyball area and an room to walk around. Let me know either by commenting on ghetto IM, phone call or email. Hope you are all doing well!

Yes it is Thursday (aerobics day) and I am still at work at 5:30 pm. I have had (and still do) so much work to do. I really needed to go to aerobics since I have't exercised in three weeks, not counting Tuesday. I guess I am doing air-aerobics today. :) Well just thought I would share how bummed I am and irritated that I am still at work when I am supposed to be working out! I have to get back to said work.

Current Mood: aggravated

I am really upset about Duke beating NC State. :(